Wednesday, May 31, 2006
New Outlook on Life
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I have a whole new attitude, and I have the movie "Super Troopers" to thank for it. Yeah, I've seen it before, but for some reason it resonated with me this weekend. So I decided:
Why not go through life without taking things seriously?
It sounds like a plan to me. Besides, I'm funnier when not depressed.
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I have a whole new attitude, and I have the movie "Super Troopers" to thank for it. Yeah, I've seen it before, but for some reason it resonated with me this weekend. So I decided:
Why not go through life without taking things seriously?
It sounds like a plan to me. Besides, I'm funnier when not depressed.
Friday, May 26, 2006
Having Another Child
In October, my wife decided that we needed to conceive our second child because it was already too large of a gap between our 3 1/2-year-old daughter and child #2. I don't necessarily agree that kids have to be spaced a certain way, but I gave into my wife's wishes. Partly because she wanted to have lots and lots of sex.
A week or two later my father died.
His death really hit me hard. In some strange way we thought his spirit would live on if my wife was pregnant with a boy. This thinking helped with the grieving process. Then my wife miscarried in December.
Life was tough in the following months. However, my wife was insistent upon getting pregnant again. And in reality, it is probably best that it has not happened. Our lives have been chaotic for 4 years, mainly due to our first child being a complete surprise. Recent famliy tragedies have only added to it.
A week or two later my father died.
His death really hit me hard. In some strange way we thought his spirit would live on if my wife was pregnant with a boy. This thinking helped with the grieving process. Then my wife miscarried in December.
Life was tough in the following months. However, my wife was insistent upon getting pregnant again. And in reality, it is probably best that it has not happened. Our lives have been chaotic for 4 years, mainly due to our first child being a complete surprise. Recent famliy tragedies have only added to it.
When A Good Job Goes Bad
I hate my job.
Now I hate it more.
Yesterday I learned that I would basically be required to do two people's work. I am not thrilled about this. Previously, my job duties sucked ass, but on the bright side there was little required of me.
The thing is, relatively speaking, I have a good job. It is stable, it is professional, I get paid well, it has good benefits, and there is a good retirement plan. However, my job duties have gotten consistently worse over the last year and a half.
My department has a forced transfer policy. They forcibly transfer people because there are crap jobs in the department that no one wants, and there are problem employees around whom their bosses are dying to transfer because they don't have the balls to fire them. So I was transferred to one of those crap jobs. Even worse, the crap job is beneath me. My department could save alot of money by having a less skilled and lower paid worker in this position. But they don't. And I am stuck here. And I am afraid that my discontent is turning me into one of those problem employees.
I used to get angry about it. Co-workers tell me it's not worth worrying about, to just work your required hours for the day and go home. But I can't follow their advice because it just sounds like they have given up. Also, I'm stubborn. And maybe a little stupid. Sometimes I feel beat down. But I have not accepted defeat. I am using my sick days pretty liberally though.
More on this later.
Now I hate it more.
Yesterday I learned that I would basically be required to do two people's work. I am not thrilled about this. Previously, my job duties sucked ass, but on the bright side there was little required of me.
The thing is, relatively speaking, I have a good job. It is stable, it is professional, I get paid well, it has good benefits, and there is a good retirement plan. However, my job duties have gotten consistently worse over the last year and a half.
My department has a forced transfer policy. They forcibly transfer people because there are crap jobs in the department that no one wants, and there are problem employees around whom their bosses are dying to transfer because they don't have the balls to fire them. So I was transferred to one of those crap jobs. Even worse, the crap job is beneath me. My department could save alot of money by having a less skilled and lower paid worker in this position. But they don't. And I am stuck here. And I am afraid that my discontent is turning me into one of those problem employees.
I used to get angry about it. Co-workers tell me it's not worth worrying about, to just work your required hours for the day and go home. But I can't follow their advice because it just sounds like they have given up. Also, I'm stubborn. And maybe a little stupid. Sometimes I feel beat down. But I have not accepted defeat. I am using my sick days pretty liberally though.
